It's Christmas Eve

It is Christmas Eve at my house tonight! The most exciting night of the kid year. Laying in bed and trying to sleep but being way too excited about all of the fun that would come with Christmas morning. Wanting it to hurry up and just be morning already! I remember being so jittery and excited in my bed and occasionally looking out the window for Santa's sleigh. I also remember feeling like I needed to go to the bathroom so badly (a side effect I had when I got really excited), but staying in bed because I couldn't face the risk of seeing Santa in the hallway. Every kid knows if you see him then he won't come back. So I stayed in bed with my legs criss-crossed like a pretzel, trying to hold it til morning and trying to fall asleep.

This is the excitement I feel tonight! Ryan comes home tomorrow!!! He has been doing an away rotation through UT in Jackson. I had to stay in Atlanta for work. He has been there for FOUR WEEKS!!! We got to see each other the first two weekends but last weekend Ryan had to go to Louisiana to be in a wedding and I had to stay in Atlanta because I couldn't take off work. SO, I haven't seen him since Sunday, October 17th! And I am dying. And to top it off, Bauer has been in Jackson with him. Bauer had to make a few visits to Mr. Danny to get a little surgery and have a follow-up visit. So I have been in Atlanta alone. By myself. Totally alone. And it ends today because tomorrow Ryan and Bauer come home!! Woo-hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so lonely when Ryan is gone. It doesn't matter if I'm around a bunch of other people or if I have a lot of fun things planned - life is just off when he's not around. There are spots in my heart that can only be filled by spending time with Ryan and Jesus. And no one can fill those spots but them. Thank goodness Jesus can go to Jackson with Ryan and still stay here in Atlanta with me!!

Well, goodnight blog world. I'm off to lay in bed and try to fall asleep...

Tomorrow! Tomorrow! I love ya! Tomorrow! We're only a day away!!!!!!!